Monday, September 12, 2011

How to begin . . .

I’ve sat here at my computer quite a few times, thinking of where to begin our story, but to pay tribute to my husband would take 32 years . . . our lifetime together.  He has been my knight in shining armor since the first time I saw him.   No prince for this girl; I needed a man with a weapon and a fast horse to ride off in the sunset with.  Oh, and ride fast horses and drive fast cars, we did … skied black diamond trails, explored the oceans of Hawaii, lost two babies together, and raised a family together. 

My Brawny Man has Stage IV lung cancer with metastases to the spine, and I vacillate between trembling like a hill on a fault line” and standing strong in my faith, ready for the storm.  I’m thinking I need to call in the Sisterfriends.

♥♥♥ 

20 comments:

Marie S said...

My heart is trembling with you.
Love is all there is.
I love you!!
I am enlisting angels, we are praying.

Lost Aussie said...

Oh my goodness Deb. I am sending you love, prayers and all the support you can imagine.
xox

Manon Doyle said...

Omg, Deb!! I just read your post and I'm shocked. I will pray for your man. I'm also coming out to AZ the end of the month and if there's anything you would need do not hesitate to call me. I'm sending you big hugs, my friend.

Kaerie Faerie said...

I'm so shocked to hear, will pray for you and your husband, lots of love and blowing magical fairy dust for luck

Carousel Dreams said...

Oh darling friend...my heart aches for you all. Please know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers. Sending healing energy across the ocean xxx

MJ Ornaments said...

I'm praying for you and your husband Deb. My heart goes out to you. xoxo Martha

yoborobo said...

Oh, Deb. I am speechless. You have my love and my prayers. I cannot imagine what you are going through. We are all standing with you. Love to you and the Brawny Man and all your chicks. xox Pam

Linda@ Lime in the Coconut said...

Strength, strength, strength...right through the magical computer cables...and love. Lots of love.

~Babs said...

And here we are: The Sisterhood.

All my prayers are going up for you, Brawny Man, and all of yours.
No greater hand could be holding yours right now than HIS. And, I know that you know that already.

Even though you tremble, you are, and will continue to be
strong.
It's your way.

Much love to you all, sweet Deb

Ces said...

I am so sad. My heart breaks once more. I have become intimate with lung cancer. I hate it. But I have also been reminded of the love and the fellowship and a soul literally lifting another. I have seen pure unquestioning love and sacrifice by those we call family and friends. true love does not need explanation. I think of you everyday. I have never prayed so hard and so much as I have these past three months. I sometimes feel angry. I am a believer and a disbeliever, anything to undo time, to turn the clock back where I can see the bright and clean smile and I look and look and ask myself, where did I go blind that I did not notice there was something wrong. I would give up my life for someone I love, alas, it does not work that way. We deem to live our own lives and who sets the course? I want to know. I want to know. Do not tell me that someone I love, who is so good and loving and kind, had a life set for pain. I hate that. I hate that. I love you. Tsup!

Anne Huskey-Lockard said...

As always, right here for you Deb. There are not words I can write to express what I feel, but you know well enough....♥
We are all praying for you, and I know your inner strength is there because you have the Spirit in you.
Never abandoned nor alone.....always supported.
Love you Sweetie....

Anne

audrey said...

Oh dear Deb, how I hated reading the words.
Do not hold back from trembling, Deb. When you take a deep breath after the tears flow, your strength returns again and again. Your faith will hold you up and so will the Sisterhood!!!
There is much love and so many prayers pouring in for you, Brawny Man, and your loved ones.
I am tightly holding your hand in spirit.
xxxxooooo♥♥♥♥ audrey

She Writes said...

Ohhhhhhh. Deb. I am sitting here teary eyed. Ohhhhhhh. Your family is in my thoughts. Your heart is one of the sweetest in blogland I know. May you find the comfort and strength you need to be the strength to your man he has been to you. Sending hugs.
xxamy

Sonia ;) said...

Deborah,

I am sending you loads of love and strength to you. I went through it with my father 4 yrs ago. If you ever need a ear, a shoulder, and or a hug please do not hesitate. I have faith in your strength, and your families.

xoxoxox Sonia

Cori G. said...

It's the weak vessels that He strengthens and the strong vessels that He breaks. Be weak and allow Him to strengthen you. Be strong for the man at your side and never forget that there is One who has both (all) your names engraved in the palm of His hand.
I love you Darling Deb and have been keeping you all in my prayers.
Big Ginormous hugs being sent your way.
love me

Silke said...

Oh, Deb, I just now read this and cannot believe it!! My heart aches for you and I am holding you close in my thoughts and prayers! I cannot even imagine what you are experiencing. All my love!!! Silke

Bella Sinclair said...

Dearest, Deborah.

There is so much I want to say, but I don't even know where to begin. When a little Texan angel first told me about your Brawny Man, we wailed together in deep sorrow. This was supposed to be your time to bask in happiness with your beautiful new grandbabies and blossoming family. We were heartbroken. I have been keeping both your husband and Ces's sister in my thoughts and prayers daily. I send you all great love, courage, and strength.

xoxoxoxo

Kjohnson said...

ugh, i love you. and your precious family.

deb colarossi said...

Deb!!!

I am pierced through.
I don't have words...

please know that I am praying hard and sending love.
I'll email soon sweet sister friend.

oxoxoxoxoo

Marion said...

Dear Deb,

I don't know you. But kj asked me to visit..

I feel such truly bright energy here, on your blog. Love surrounds you and your family with so much laughter and joy.

Your husband's journey will be difficult...your incredibly strong faith and unfailing sense of gratitude will sustain you both.Your strength is so admirable and something I can only aspire to.

This morning, during meditation, I sent strong Reiki blessings and much loving energy to you, your dear husband, your kids and grandkids.

Even under these really difficult circumstances, I am so pleased to meet you!! Much love and great hugs sent your way...