Friday, July 5, 2013

What’s on My Desktop?

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Nothing!

Actually there IS something new.

Formica!

Last year when my Brawny Man started my desk/work station for me, feeling the

effects of chemo-brain, he took the advice of the “paint person” at Home Depot.  The

desk was always sticky in that subtle way where you think it’s dry, but everything leaves

marks on it when moved.  One day, when unsticking my sewing machine

for the 100th time, the idea of a sheet of Formica came to mind.  After surviving the toxic

fumes from the adhesive (really nasty stuff) and growing a few brains cells back,

I LOVE it.

You will note that my bookcase extending from the desk top to the ceiling is not there.

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To say that I am not happy about my Mister’s cancer is a great understatement.

I hate everything about it. 

But I am his strong tower; his refuge.

I am not the sobbing, frightened, weak woman I was two years ago.

He now depends on me.

He is my inspiration for finding JoY.

deepest pain

17 comments:

Lois said...

I was just thinking today what a bloody thief cancer is... But each day is a precious gift, and a gift worth celebrating. My sister Marilyn has to go for a CT scan in a week, spots showed on her lungs in her last physical. It just never leaves you alone! Love your desk. Mine is sticking like crazy today, the humidity is high and the wood in my house has reached that sticky stage.

Marcia Pilar said...

Love your desk, Deborah. Formica tops and glass are my favorite.
YOU, my friend, are the greatest inspiration in this post.
Much love to you.
xoxo

Deborah said...

P.S. Still growing.

Robin said...

You, beautiful blonde dancer, are my inspiration too.... and I know you are the *Brawny Man's* Muse. The two of you symbolise all that LOVE is about. You have grown in strength...and this provides so much comfort to your entire family...I am so proud to know you.

Love to all,

♥ Robin ♥

Linda Wildenstein said...

you are such an inspiration and I'm sure the very best muse to your Brawny man. Oma Linda

Debra She Who Seeks said...

We never know what we can do until we have to do it. You have unleashed your inner warrior woman!

kj said...

You and Formica have alot in common: strong, smooth, shiny, versatile, cool, and great looking.

You are a warrior when needed and a dancer under the stars :-)

Love always!
kj

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Jos said...

Deborah, I just wanted to pop by and thank you for visiting and commenting on my blog. What you said about sitting with feelings about our mothers totally resonated with me. And you're right that almost without exception parents do their best. I too am so sorry for your loss Deborah. Warmest hugs xx Jos

martinealison said...

Bonjour ma chère amie,

Impeccable ! ce bureau...
Sur l'écran j'aime !! un petit cousin à Icarus mon bébé dalmatien !...

Gros bisous à vous.

Pooja Mittal said...

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Kathryn - Collage Diva said...

I found my way here by way of the Mad Tea Party. I feel at some level that I can relate to where you are at for my father's health declined dramatically and for three years it was a struggle each day. I watched how brave my stepmother was even when she didn't feel brave. I was my dad's sunshine. I visited weekly and called daily. No matter how I felt, I knew I needed to be his light, his bright spot. I grew weary at times. It isn't easy to be bright and shiny all of the time. I can only imagine how much harder it is for you as you are a bright spot 24/7. I hope you are taking good care of you!

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Shirley said...

Your strength is palpable, Deborah..I feel it when I read your words here at your place, as well as mine..and I thank you for sharing your heartfelt love and spirit with all of us out here. I'm SO so very much wishing you and your dear hubby all the peace and strength as you continue on this journey..may it be filled with smiles and love though I know tears are part of this..stinging tears as you wrote. Cancer took my dear mom over 2 years ago but she left our family with peace (and of course, love)..a gift I cherish each day. Thank you for your wonderfully kind and generous comments..I'm happy my pictures bring back memories of youth! Big hugs to you - and happy birthday to your sweet granddaughter..you are SO talented with all of those birthday goodies and details!!

Silke said...

You are so inspiring to me, Deb! I don't know anyone who hasn't been touched by cancer and everyone reacts so differently! I can feel your strength and your hope and your love! And I admire you deeply! (As well as your very clean desk...) Lots of love! Silke

Sara@www.tablegrace.net said...

Hi Deborah,
Thank you for your kind words on my writing about spring. My chemo break continues and as my energy returns I realize how beaten down I really was. I'm sure I was not easy to live with and being the Stage IV spouse has it's own challenges. I hope your husband is doing well. My next scan is in a month. Damn, they come round often.
Thinking of you both.
Sara@tablegrace.net

Pamela Smallcomb said...

Deb, just stopping by to say hello and to tell you that even though you might not hear from me, you are in my thoughts and prayers. Love & hugs! xo

Sandra Evertson said...

Your strength gives me hope.... wishing you peace and happiness.
Sandra